There are all too many times when individuals just go through “the motions,” whether those motions be at work, at home, in a relationship, or with their religiosity. They seem to think that if they just fake it long enough, show up on time, or act the right way, that eventually their heart will follow, but that is only sometimes the case. But, working hard at your place of employment, or at a relationship, or at your spirituality can actually change your atitude, and your outlook to a much deeper level. Going through the motions will only get you so far.
In my church, as I am sure many others, church attendance is a basic function of its members – it’s expected in order for you to be regarded as a “good Christian member.” And even if you go slightly above and beyond by volunteering at Church, or attending all meetings and gatherings, it can still just be a show of devotion, not of true worship.
The thing is, being truly converted, truly in love with something (work or a relationship or God) requires much more of an investment of our time and even our actions. Being converted is a change of heart. It is having a paradigm shift. It is a humbling, soul-searching process that leaves you a different person in the end, a better person, a happier person. It aligns your priorities to their proper spheres. It changes your perspective.
Becoming truly converted to the cause of truth, to Jesus, to God, doesn’t just mean being baptized or paying tithes and offerings or showing up to church. It’s an internal process and it is rarely accomplished overnight.
Right now in my life, I am on a journey to be more than a church attending, scripture reading, tithe paying, church serving Christian. Because, while I have always been active in my church, right now I don’t feel totally converted.
I have been going through the motions of an active Christian church member, but I feel my testimony’s burning blaze has become only an ember.
Testimonies, or faith, are either waning or waxing, growing or dying. While I’ve been feeding my testimony good Christian actions, it seems to have built up a resistance to them as it is no longer helping it grow. I feel stagnant in my zealous attitude towards true meaningful faith in the Lord and I’ve had enough of it. I am finally doing something about it.
I recently shared how my husband and I are striving to say one truly meaningful prayer a day, for a month, and see what happens. I’ve also been trying to study my scriptures, instead of just reading them.
I do this by looking up cross-references, by discussing what I’ve read with another, or by using supplemental materials (study manuals or sermons). But, I’m also thinking more about my beliefs and about God throughout the day.
I also am trying to look for the blessings I have in my life and share the good things that have happened that week in my journal.
I am doing these things to convert my heart. I will still be attending church faithfully and all the other good things I have done, but finally striving to implement what I read and hear at church to penetrate deep into my soul.
I deeply desire a close and personal relationship with my Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ. I am sick of being a “Sunday Christian” at heart.
Have you ever had a journey of the heart? How do you stay converted to God and not just converted to church?