Can you believe it has been a year and a half, since I delivered and met these two precious little girls?
They are so much more than I ever imagined. They are awesome. I love how sweet they are! We get so many hugs and kisses. They fold their arms for prayer time and sometimes even say little prayers on their own (in their own little speech)! Precious!
Now that they are 18 months old, it also means that they will no longer be with us for all three hours of church on Sunday! Praise the Lord! They will now be in Nursery during Sunday School and Elder’s Quorum/Relief Society. This means Josh and I can be fully involved in the lesson instead of making sure our girls aren’t destroying hymn books, playing the piano, pulling off table cloths, going through other people bags, spreading Cheerios around the room, or crying. Now they can freely play with toys, with other children, have a designated snack time, and probably be much happier than when Mommy and Daddy make them stay in our row of chairs for three full hours. They will still have to stay mildly behaved for Sacrament meeting, which is a little over an hour, but this will be a great improvement!
I love that my girls are growing older! I love seeing them learn new things, understand what I am saying, learn new words, run faster, do more physically, and on and on. Sure I wish I could cuddle and rock them to sleep still, but now I can just ask for a hug or a kiss and usually get it!
By no means are having twins all sunshine and rainbows. Are you kidding? But, I count my many blessings that I had them first! Sure I had the distinct disadvantage of not already knowing how to mother a newborn, breastfeed, or generally take care of a child, but that’s just it! I didn’t KNOW! I didn’t know what it was like just to have one! I didn’t know how much more time I was up in the middle of the night nursing two newborns back to sleep. I didn’t know how much less sleep I was getting, how much easier it must be to put just one child down for a nap/bedtime, how much less I spent on diapers and wipes, and how few cries I heard. I had the distinct advantage of learning how to do it all with twins first. So there’s no comparison. I don’t know how much harder it was or even if it was! To me it’s what was needed to be done. It was what I had to do. Sure I could imagine what it would be like, but you can probably only imagine what having twins is like. You don’t really know until it happens to you.
And sure, I have a mild case of I.W.A.N. (I Want A Newborn), but I just hope the next time there will only be one. Don’t get me wrong, having twins has been great, but I can’t help lust (there I said it!) a little for just one newborn I can completely fawn over and not have to ignore another newborn who also desires my fawning (and milk).
But, like I said, I’m glad we had twins first. In fact right after Josh and I found out we were having twins we decided there were distinct advantages to having twins first, which I think are still true. Here’s our top 10 reasons we posted back then:
1. We will never have an only child.
2. Two for the price of one pregnancy (and it was relatively easy).
3. We can wait longer before the next pregnancy, and more kids (technically).
4. Cute matching outfits!
5. The next babies, deliveries, and pregnancies will be nothing compared to twins!
6. One won’t be more spoiled than the other (like most first kids are spoiled).
7. We’ll have plenty of hand-me-down stuff for our next kids.
8. We’ll be the topic of conversation (what’s cuter than one baby? TWO!).
9. Two kids to practice parenting on (and learn about different personalities and what to do).
10. They’ll be used to sharing, just about everything. (though Alison doesn’t want to sometimes).
It’s interesting as I look back on some old posts, like THIS one,where I honestly tell how hard adjusting to twins and our current situation (unemployed and broke) was. Or how in THIS post I describe my daily accomplishments and worries and struggles with having two very young twins while trying to take on-line classes. But, I also look at THIS post and remember how cute they were and how tiny! They could fall asleep in the strangest positions and places. They could also stay in one general location for a long time! And then I look at posts like THIS one where I tell about the things people say to parents of twins, but also the great benefit of having twins! And then I recently posted THIS where there are many videos of my girls playing and interacting together. And after looking at these posts, I am grateful that I have such a great collection of writings about them, and not only here on the blog, but also in my journal and their baby books. Because remembering all the details of that first year are hard to do. I think we just block it all out, or we just can’t remember because sometimes we are just thinking about putting one foot in front of the other.
I guess what I am trying to say is that the good greatly outweighs the difficulties, many of which I listed HERE. I am not great with words, reflection, poetry, or writing feelings, so let’s just say that I love Lisa and Alison and am grateful they are now 18 months, ready and raring to go, and marvel at how big they are, how smart, capable, and happy. I love being home with them and being their mother.