I wrote a post for How Do You Do It? yesterday and would like to share it with you all. Here’s a snippet:
…. I looked at an old blog post I had written when my twin daughters were two months old…. And reading that post made me realize just how different my postpartum experiences have been.
With the girls, I was recovering from major surgery for six + weeks. I was also thrown into motherhood head-first. I didn’t know how to breastfeed. I didn’t know how to change diapers well, or how to properly treat stains, or what things you really needed, and a host of other tricks of the “trade” that you learn as you mother for a while.
But, the big difference, is that with the girls, for the first several weeks, I didn’t enjoy motherhood. I loved my girls, but I didn’t necessarily always feel it, not when I felt more like a milk cow than a mother, not when I was so dog tired, not when my kids didn’t smile or laugh yet. It was a big adjustment to say the least.
On top of all the new motherhood things I had to learn and doubly, I was also going through other big transitions, like going from a full-time student, literally the day before giving birth, to being a stay-at-home mom. And then moving across the country, from Utah to Indiana, when my twins were only six weeks old. And then not knowing anyone other my in-laws who we were living with there. It was a crazy time. The first year with twins is a general blur when I try to look back at that time. I really was in survival mode.
Read my full post over at How Do You Do It?