I know I didn’t blog last week. I guess I was just hopeful that for my regular “Friday Favorites” post I could just post a picture of a cute baby boy or write a quick post saying we were on our way to the hospital or something. But, since neither of those was a reality, I didn’t feel much like blogging, because Saturday, March 9, 2013, was my due date for baby boy.
And here I am at 40 weeks 4 days, still pregnant.
At my appointment on Friday I was hopeful that my midwife could sweep my membranes and hopefully help jump-start labor, but she couldn’t do it. I wasn’t dilated enough (or like at all) and my cervix too soft (which is actually a very good thing). While I certainly have dropped as his head is pushing down in my pelvis, often pinching a nerve in my butt, he still has a way to go to be completely effaced.
So, with the news that my midwife couldn’t help my labor start, Josh and I have been trying to do things on our to help it along. We’ve gone on several walks – Indianapolis Art Museum, Indianapolis Children’s Museum, walking around downtown, walking around our neighborhood, walking around the Keystone and Circle Center Mall and the Indianapolis Convention Center. We’ve eaten spicy foods from Mexican restaurants and that we made at home. We ate hot wings yesterday. We’ve also had relations most days.
But, I’m still pregnant and haven’t felt any consistent contractions. While sometimes I think I’ve had a few “real” contractions, they are usually once and done. Braxton-Hicks contractions are regular and frequent, but I need more than BH contractions to deliver this baby. And the walking mostly just makes my hands swell.
And to be honest I’m a little sad and mopey about it.
While I pretty much knew this baby would be late due to family history (my mother had eleven children, all of which I believe were late, some very late), it’s still hard to not have this baby in my arms already! While physically I will be just fine carrying for a while longer (I’m still sleeping and don’t really have back pain or high blood pressure), I don’t want to. Partially it’s because this week is Josh’s spring break. He doesn’t have school or work all week – a perfect week for a baby to come!
So, this is teaching us that our time schedule, is not meant to be. We are ultimately not in control. God is. The laws of nature are. We, the parents, are not. Despite our best efforts, nature still has to run its course. And we are praying dearly for both patience and a quick, healthy arrival of our son.
While of course we still have some medical alternatives, one involving a knife, we really do want to deliver this child as naturally as we can. My next appointment is Friday afternoon with the OB who will be discussing with me our options should this child wait until then to be born. Hopefully some dilation will have occurred so sweeping of membranes or breaking of waters can occur and a repeat C-section be avoided. I’m pretty sure they will let me go into my 41st week before having to cut me open, thankfully, as I may need a little more grace.
So, yes, I am 40 weeks and still pregnant. And trust me, we’ll let everyone know when D-Day has come!
But, for now we’re just praying and trying our best to convince this little guy that life outside the womb is much much better.